Posts tagged depression

Maybe then I wouldn’t feel so horrible.

Maybe that would mean that someone actually cares about me and I won’t be alone forever.

God damn, I need to get a hold of myself.

I’m sick of being like this, but I also like it, don’t I? If I didn’t like this, I would just stop feeling like this. Right?

Right.

Fuck.

Just fuck.

I screwed part of my life over.

Just fuck all this shit.

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Why can’t anyone love me?

Basics:

-Boyfriend dumped me recently, and I’m still trying to get over it.

-Had a relapse with cutting not too long ago. Might happen more often.

-Started taking my anti-depressants again.

-Been extremely depressed and prone to crying.

-Having awesome times with awesome people and feeling special.

-Going between hating life and loving life.

-Little sleep and not eating properly.

I’ll rant about certain things when I wouldn’t mind crying over them, but it’s late, and I want to fall asleep in a good mood.